Watching Them Grow | lfhb's Blog

It seems like yesterday that I was crying over not being able to get pregnant, and now my oldest is soon to be 15, with my youngest not too much younger..... the years go by far too quickly. But, I have grown to enjoy each year even more than the previous. Growing closer to them even more as they grow nearer to adulthood - I hope this trend continues. I not only love them, but I really LIKE them.... they are simply the coolest people I know. They make me laugh, think deeply, fear a life without them, and challenge my sense of wonder about the universe - so much - too much to put into words.

My oldest is undergoing some neurological issues this month (requiring some invasive testing; not all fun) - and he's been so very brave, even with his autism and cognitive delay, I think he is probably one of the most evolved humans I will ever have the pleasure of knowing. His midnight sermons about the truths of the universe, are among my favorite moments - he loves to sit under the stars and just talk about everything from molecular composition of dust particles to why numbers exist (and his question is always, why? hmmm....why indeed).

His sister is truly an old soul and pillar of truth and kind strength - "Don't take this wrong, mom... I love you and dad... but I love my brother more." What mother wouldn't wrap her arms in sheer painful delight at such an exlamation of love for her special needs brother? My heart felt completely safe in that moment - knowing that my son has such a lioness for a sister - an old soul who refuses to see harm come to her brother. Beauty. Simply Beauty in a profound sense.

My words today are simple and short - but real and from the heart. Goodnight sweet children (around the world / and universe). You are loved and appreciated from this mother who knows what it is to love so deeply that no words could ever come close to its description. "Good"night, indeed.